I'm coming down with a cold. It's that scratchy yucky feeling at the back of your throat that kind of echoes through your whole nasal passages. This means a cold is on the way.
I went into this really long tirade about how my trip to Whataburger was going to set me over goal, but it turns out I misread the information. So it's all good. Whew. I thought I'd painted myself into a corner two hours into the new day.
I was actually speaking to my friend today how deprivation issues are causing me to self destruct. I think I've finally put my finger on the source of the problem. I've worked so hard in the last month to try and maintain the status quo that I've totally ignored a subtle feeling of depression that has sunk in. It's affected my sleep, it's affected my dreams (I had a doozy yesterday about being coerced into sex with a family member - I've been disturbed ever since) and it's affected my energy level. Which is why I've managed to sideline the Pilates.
So I bought some St. Johns Wort tonight. I figure the multi vitamin I bought has made me feel so much better, I'd give this other herbal remedy a try. I'll let you know how it goes.
I'm a little worried about my month check in on the 11th. I feel like the weight loss is either going to be small or worse, I'll have gained. After my 12lb loss the last month, I was hoping to maintain. Unfortunately this was not a good month for my new lifestyle. But I'm not going to beat myself up. There's no shame in falling down. I just can't stay down.
Calories: 2006 / 30% fat
Exercise: Walked 3 miles, rode stationary bike for 10 mins.