CAUTION: Weak Warrior Moment Ahead...
I am frustrated. Completely and totally frustrated.
I've noticed a pattern when I weigh in. When I know I'm going to weigh in, I totally subconsciously sabatoge myself. I cannot sleep, which affects weigh in. I get so tense my bowels lock up, which affects weigh in. Without fail whenever I weigh in I do everything I know in my logical mind will give me a bad result.
I swear I'm not doing it on purpose, and everytime it happens I get so mad and upset at myself I immediately want to pig out.
I don't know what's wrong with me. Furthermore I'm at a complete loss how to fix it.
I think I'm going back to weighing myself once a week. It seemed like things leveled out at that point. I've been thinking about fasting one day a week. For a lot of reasons but mostly because I still feel the lingering bondage for food. I have to research on how to do it healthily.
Anyway I may just be speaking out of frustration and things will be clearer in the morning. I need to figure out when a good weigh in would be and just stick to it. I'll do the photo update then. It will probably be Wednesday. It may be tomorrow. We'll just seen if I can't pull myself together.
Anyway, I blew water and sodium. Chalk it up to the self sabotage.
DAILY AFFIRMATION: I don't care what the scale says, I know I'm successfully changing my body and losing this weight.
Calories: 2003 / 22% fat
Exercise: Walked 1 mile
RED means I did not meet goal