Tonight will have to be a short one I have a ton of work tonight. I might not even get that bicycling in, just depends on when I get done. I decided to let Sunday be my exercise free day, but we'll see. It may have to be Saturdays.
I'm totally at a loss for a decent topic for tonight. I think it's because I'm just letting myself get distracted tonight. Got tons of stuff to do and no real inclination to do it. Last night I had a setback where I lost about five and half hours worth of work which tightens my deadline for tomorrow. So I really have to hustle tonight to make up for it. It's made me so reluctant to even get started. Just the thought gives me a headache.
But... it's not going to get any easier until I get started. As always the first push to accomplish anything is always the hardest. That's why I think I really haven't gone off the wagon. I know how hard it would be to get back on it. So I may sometimes be hanging off that wagon by one foot, but I manage to pull myself back on.
I don't think that makes me any better than anyone else... just lazier. I don't want start over.
But you know what? Quitting isn't even an issue anymore. In fact, in this last week this process has become my way of life. I am setting up habits that I will carry on long after I hit goal weight. I don't think of this as a temporary change anymore.
Changing the focus onto every day rather than the long term goals (even weekly ones) has really made the difference. I don't know when that changed, I used to have that outlook in the beginning. And I had more success in the beginning too. So it took me a while but I put two and two together and finally didn't come up with a fraction.
DAILY AFFIRMATION: I am a success today.
Calories: 1807 / 25%
Exercise: None scheduled.
RED means I didn't meet goal