Yesterday began with a very deep depression. My mood dipped way low and I didn't want to do anything about anything. It didn't help that the fever for the flu finally set in yesterday, either. I felt miserable and my one vice toward happiness I could not use anymore. Talk about deprivation. It was ugly.
So I made life miserable for everyone until about mid afternoon when we went back to the store. I was on a mission. I had to find some way of exisiting on this new life program. Food once again had to become my friend, even if it couldn't be the same friend as before.
I went low carb on everything. Pasta, bread, even my tortillas. I bought low carb BBQ sauce and low carb sugar free syrup. If it said sugar free, it was for me. I even bought some ice cream. Yup. Ice cream. Banana nut no less. No sugar added, no sugar, corn syrup any gluclose product.
And I ate like a fiend all day long. The secret to hypoglycemia is to keep the blood sugar steady, and by doing that, eat small frequent meals with complex carbohydrates that take longer to break down. And protein. Lots of good protein to sate your hunger.
I had about a half of a yogurt smoothie that morning (no more of those, they have sugar), then for "brunch" I had egg beaters, cooked with turkey sausage, served with fat free cheese and tomato on a jalapeno tortilla with side serving of grapes. For lunch I had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich on double fiber, sugar free wheat bread with sugar free all natural apricot preserves. For dinner we had the low carb pasta with low carb tomato sauce and green beans. I had the banana nut ice cream for dessert. A little while later I had some grapes again (they were mighty tasty). For my after dinner snack I had some cherries and some 2% cheese.
I ate so much I was surprised to learn I only ate 1657 calories. I was satisfied, I even enjoyed what I got to eat. My pie chart was the most even I'd ever seen it, with 28% fat, 43% carb and 29% protein. As for the low carb, sugar free experiment goes, a huge thumbs up on the Smuckers Sugar Free Apricot Preserves and the H.E.B. Creamy Sensations No Sugar Added Banana Nut Ice Cream. Thumbs way down on the soy protein low carb pasta. I'll have to find a better substitute for that. The Bella Vita Low Carb Spicy Tomato Sauce, though, was very good.
We also went to GNC (weighed in, haven't lost anything) and I bought some Stevia and some Chromium Picolinate tablets. This is not a cheap venture for me, but I'm biting the bullet and doing it anyway.
I did enjoy my food yesterday and I didn't feel that deprived at all. So hopefully I've found a happy medium between eating like I used to and eating like I need to. I guess it goes way back to what I said in the beginning - it's not about what you deprive yourself of, it's about choices.
Next month's vacation to Las Vegas will tell the tale. They say once you've done something for a month it becomes a habit. We'll see.
As soon as I'm over the fever, aches and hacking cough, I'll be back on the exercise mill as well. I can tell I haven't done it in a while, everything feels flabby where it was feeling firmer. That's reason in itself to do it.
Tomorrow is my "official" weigh in day, so we'll do our month's update then. I just couldn't face it on Sunday (the 11th), I was so sick.
Off to medicate now...