I decided today that we live life like we play poker.
It came to me as we were out and about doing errands, and I happen to notice this studio that offers services like voice over, recording commercials and script writing. I noted the website information and planned on investigating the matter further before ever attempting any contact.
Steven, however, marched right in and took the bull by the horns.
In each of our own ways we handled this matter the way we play poker. Steven takes chances and risks big (he also wins more than I do), me, on the other hand, I am very conservative, only playing when I have a hand and never risking big unless I know the odds are tipped in my favor. I have much more staying power and do better at tournaments.
Anyway, back to what I was telling you all yesterday in that I have a hard time seeing the "new" me as opposed to the "old" me, my closet is full of clothes that are now big enough to be "too" big. You know, it no longer works as the camoflauge it used to, instead I look frumpy and dumpy and I'm actually not comfortable anymore in these too big clothes.
Well yesterday I took a page out of Steven's book and put some of these items up on Ebay to sell. In doing so, I'm taking away my safety net if this weight loss effort doesn't succeed. I'm also being industrious about it - creating an income to provide for the new smaller clothes I'm going to need.
It was a huge step. I'm very cautious, I like to keep my options open. In this way I'm painting myself right into a corner - I literally can't afford to go back to the way I used to live.
It was a good day - we bought our bus tickets to Vegas (half price super saver fare), got the car repaired so that it can actually make the trip to Amarillo and did some more grocery shopping. Got a nice thunderstorm to cool things down, came home to children actually ready to help with the chores (shocker!) and now am dealing with what seems like a house full of children. I'm either going to have to employ yoga or Prozac, I haven't yet decided.
Steven is two days away from being free from the graveyard shift. I'm really happy about that. I'm all about schedules and by Monday we're going to be able to schedule our life in a somewhat normal fashion, including one to two walks per day. I think I'm finally up for it. I'm saving the Pilates until after we return from the trip and the kids are in school. It's just a lot easier to do when you don't have kids underfoot.
Speaking of which it's time to prepare dinner and feed the savages.