We went out. I was bad. It wasn't pretty.
Today's a new day, that's all I can say.
Steven has a new job selling cars for a pretty big lot here in town. They are currently conducting a contest where the top 20 salesmen and their spouses or significant others get to go to Cancun, Mexico. Steven is about 60% to his goal, and he's still got a month to go. It looks like he's got a legitimate shot at winning this thing.
At first, I wasn't all that thrilled. I've had Vegas fever for a while now and it looked like we could probably make the trip in May with my best friend (which would be even more fun). To instead get a trip to somewhere I never even wanted to go was less than great news.
If I were to be really honest - and I haven't been that with myself lately - it would be because Cancun is more of an activities destination. They have a lot of water related activities there and guess who is deathly afraid of water? <raises hand>
No, I never learned how to swim last year. I'm just still so freaked out to. I accept my weininess, thank you.
So a trip to a bathing suit wearing, ocean loving location is a little intimidating. It shouldn't be, but it is.
I finally decided that this is the perfect opportunity to get outside of my comfort zone. I've already discovered my comfort zone isn't truly living - so this is a chance to throw caution to the wind and actually experience "life".
I'm thisclose to considering the possibility of maybe learning how to swim. (How is that for noncommittal?) I have a huge fear of the water, like I said. I know it stems from loss of control. But maybe this is just the kick in the rear I need to get over myself and "feel the fear and do it anyway".
I guess it's time to buy a swimsuit.
I think that intimidates me more than getting in the water. :-O
We started our new college courses this week. I get to write another paper on the topic of my choice. I think I really want to write about healthy weight loss in a fad diet socieity. It's something I feel strongly about, for one, it's somethingI know a lot about, for two - and maybe, just maybe it's something I need to hear for three.
I'll get it together.
Because I'm worth a healthy life.